Excitement Leads to Exhaustion
As I've mentioned before, we own our own business. It's fun and exciting and I get to play boss so of course that's not all bad. When I say "come home early", my husband has to for fear of being fired. OK, not really but sometimes I like to joke that way because, well, he's a man and basically deserves to be harassed whenever possible <joke>. Nothing like sexual harassment though, huh?
We are currently working on a new product aimed at children's safety. That's all I'm willing to say right here and now, but let me tell you, we are very excited about it. Enough so that I'm actually working at night on it (even after working all day on it). I even worked while trying to watch 24 last night. The problem for me and working at night is that I can't stop thinking and go to sleep, so I have to wait at least an hour after I shut down the computer before heading to bed. Even if I can't keep my eyes open, I can't stop thinking about what needs to be done next. It's annoying as hell but maybe we're all like this when we get really excited about something.
Working on this new idea has been exhausting for me. I get so excited that I actually shake. Yes, you'd think I was giving a presentation in front of a million people or something. It's awful - it causes typos and all sorts of things. I'm not terrible about typos, but I do occasionally make them. I'm even better about not leaving words out of sentences, but I notice I've been doing a lot of that lately too. My hands can't keep up with my brain, and I type probably 85 words per minute (that high school typing class really paid off 25 years ago! It's been the most-used skill I acquired there). I have to admit, though, it's great to be so excited about something that it makes you quiver. It's been a long time that I've had this kind of feeling - and in fact, perhaps never. Even adrenaline rushes in police work are different (invigorating, yes, but in a very different way). In police work you don't think, you just act. In business, you'd better think long before you act or you either make a total ass of yourself (which is OK sometimes) or you step on toes without meaning to - and that could mean a door slammed in your face.
I have to say this to anyone out there wanting to start a business: yes, it's scary, especially if it's something you have to go into whole-hearted - by that I mean quitting your day job - and yes, it's a huge risk. But someone said something to me today that really stuck (you've heard it before, as have I): those who take the greatest risks usually get the greatest payoffs. It's true. So if you're debating, even if you have a family to feed and a mortgage to pay, do it. Find a way to make it work. We are, and let me tell you, I'm glad we're doing it. If we don't get it right the first time, we're going to try again. You see, every time you fail, you hopefully learn something. And the more failures, the more tenacious you can become. And one day, you'll have your big payoff.
But you might be exhausted while you're clawing your way through the failures!